Clarity In Muddy Waters

Clarity In Muddy Waters
I am just a tiny speck in our beautiful mass

Thursday, July 18, 2013

It's been awhile, but I am still here....

I apologize for not letting anyone know I was taking an internet break.  I didn't plan it.  So this is what has been going on in my life these days:

1.  I finally moved into my OWN apartment.  No more room-mates/friends etc.  I LOVE IT.  This is huge for me.  I realized that at the age of 46 I haven't lived alone for longer than 4 months between men since the age of 17.  It is an amazing feeling to take the key and open the door to "my home". Now I am kicking my ass because I didn't do it years ago.  Peace of mind and privacy are an amazing, wonderful thing.  Plus I worked it out so my overhead is quite low.  Only in PA can you find a nice apartment in a decent neighborhood at a VERY reasonable price.

2.  I met a man!!  A man in my age bracket ( a little younger, but mature) We have become great friend and the benefits part blows my mind.  He literally came out of nowhere and he saw me. I mean he saw the inside and outside.  I can't bullshit this man and I know instinctively that he has a line in the sand.  Meaning he has boundaries, that once crossed, would mean losing a great person in my life.  That is a good thing for me. 

3.  My car got totaled yesterday.  I just spent over $1400 in upkeep and new parts and Bam!! I was on my way to Joe's yesterday and after I just sunk all that money into the car it is considered totaled.  I was driven home by the police officer and came in my house and cried.  I woke up feeling sore and bruised, I think more mentally than physically.  Today however I have much better spirits and realize that my life is not over.  I still have much to be thankful for.  Usually I would get morbidly depressed.  This time I decided that I am going to plow forward and take life one day at a time and things will get better

So that is a brief update as to what has been going on in my PA life.  The car is no more, but I have a nice roof over my head and people that love and care for me.  Life could be a lot worse.  Now I am going to check everyone else's blogs and play catch up.  Peace!!!!