Saturday, May 3, 2014
I feel good..
It's Saturday and 70 degrees out. The windows are open and I feel good dammit. It's about time. Maybe the mood stabilizers are working or maybe I just feel good. Eyes wide open and clear headed....I have cleaned out my closet. That is a yearly thing I do. Go through the list of people in my life that cause me stress and aggravation and I just delete them. So I'm down to 3 real friends that are like family and I'm lovely with that. Better 3 than 30 fake pains in my ass. My bullshit radar is on high alert these days. I notice that when the economy tanks the more bullshit abounds. All for the love of money. I despise that. Everyone thinks that my life is so easy, except for the 3 real friends. Everyone sees the outside package all put together looking good. They don't see the pain and hurt underneath. The struggle to keep the package perfect. That alone is a job. I adore my Joe. 76 and has the spirit of a 20 year old man. Proper until pissed. Will tell you to fuck off in a heart beat. I do believe he has earned the right to say whatever the hell he wants to say. When you are born in 1937 and still doing the damned thing in 2014 hallelujah! He does not give a rats ass what anyone thinks about him and I love it and him. Yes I feel good today. He is the numero uno friend on this planet. Screams at me until I cry but only to get my head out of my ass as he states. My head is slowly coming out of my ass and seeing thing with wide eyes. I feel good. Godspeed!!!!!